It's a GIRL!

Tiny fingers, tiny toes, cute little fingers, and a sweet little nose!!! Matt and I got to see God's little miracle moving around inside of me last Wednesday, February 9th! Wow! What a supreme devotion!!!! We were SHOCKED when the tech. said, "Well, I guess you can start buying pink camo." What? Wow! In a family mostly filled with boys, it looks like we are having a GIRL! Our sweet little munchkin is 12 cm long (less than 5 inches!) and weighs 8 ounches (1/2 lb!). Yet even so small, she already has a developed spine, Mommy's big feet, a sweet little button nose, and adorable little legs. She was even trying to suck her thumb, kick me, and making munching motions like she was talking to us. At one point, it even appeared as if she was holding a fake mic to her mouth and singing to us. I can't wait to meet this little miracle! Thank you, God!!!

~Julie

Why do we forget?

Why do we forget? Forget His faithfulness, His goodness, His love, His plan? Speaking about forgetting, I even forgot I had started this blog last spring. I feel like I have gone on a trip through Dark Valley, with side trips to Confusion Mountain, and God, Where are You? Cave. However, along the way, I have seen rainbows, felt the warmth of His Sonshine, and seen views that are like secret joys--tucked away in God's creation.

Since I last wrote, I resigned from CCPS, went on a fascinating trip out West with Matt, started a new job as a private SLP at SPEECH PATHways in Westminster, adopted a sweet puppy we named Zoe, joined a marriage group (RBI) through LifePoint, AND BECAME PREGNANT!

The latter was a shock to me, as evidenced by the trip I spoke of. After losing Peanut one year ago and receiving some grim news in the conception department, I began to doubt God's plan for us in the area of children.

Matt didn't, though. I always admire my blessing--my husband--my example of faith and resting in the Lord. Matt has shown me time and time again what it means to rest in the Lord, trust Him, and just be! I am so thankful to be married to such an amazing man!

So, why come back to an abandoned blog today of all days? Well, because today I am in a reflective mood--the same sort of reflective spirit which prompted Caesura's creation in the first place. I am anxious and excited about today! In just 1 hour, 45 minutes, I will be able to see Baby K!! Matt and I have our gender ultrasound today!!! Wow! I am 18 weeks, 6 days today and so thankful for God's provision.


However, the past couple days, I've let Satan's doubts creep in. How could God truly bless me? What if there is something wrong? What if? What if? What if?

My friend Melissa reminded me this morning that THIS is my time for joy! God has brought me through the valley! I need to embrace this time and celebrate His goodness!! Whoo-hooo! Thank You, Lord, for friends like that!

"This is the day the LORD has made! Let us rejoice and be glad in it!" Psalm 118:24.

God IS good! I am hopeful for today! He loves me! He loves this little one! He loves you! Amen!!

~Julie